Saturday, January 12, 2008
Does it matter? I don't think so anymore..{5:13 PM}
Past few days..when i'm alone..this thought crosses my mind..
Does it matter? i don't think so anymore..
Kinda Tired of this feeling.. It's like i'm holding on the a dream that won't come true.. or like one of my friend whould put it..chasing a dream that was never there..
well during the past few siviks periods, we've been learning about this refleksi diri thingie..
and well everyone has to write an essay about their own achievements.. well.. i thought of everything.. and my mind like when out of the topic..and i started thinking about what happened.. not my achievements..but what i've been doing everyday and all that..
I know that some people haven't been completely truthful with me.. And I don't know if i can trust what they say anymore.. everyday i'm loosing my faith in them.. sooner or later i'm gonna give up and just leave them (Feels like it's gonna happen very soon)..
i'm tired of listening to lies.. the worst thing is they just won't admit it!
they think telling me the truth would hurt me..
But hey!
The Truth Hurts!! But your lies are KILLING ME!
which is better? the lie that may cause a smile? or the truth that may cause a tear?
Don't They Get It?!?! Lying would just hurt me MORE!
I'm very fed up with life.. what's the use if i just stay here suffering like this.. i'm still not okay.. i'm still the same.. and nothing has changed.. i've done all i could.. but i can't change what i feel.. kinda sick of this feeling.. giving up soon.. and i don't know how to explain this feeling.. it's just sooo hard.. i'm suffering alot from this.. it's really tiring..
Pls Listen to what i'm feeling..
thanx to the readers who read..
``Buhbwaii
The name's manda.
